I only feel like listening to really angry gangsta music.
I have this really bad habit of typing with one finger.. Im doing it right now. I think about how I should type with all my fingers like i was taught, but no matter how hard I try... One finger.
This is a terrible analogy for the way Im feeling right now but I feel I have this bad habit of being in terrible relationships. I realized that i have had the luxury of writing whateverthefuck i want in my blog because no guy that im with ever reads it. Which is nice. Cause I like taking out all the awful shit the pull on me on all of you guys that read this and want to kill yourselves afterwards cause its just so damn sad.
I have said in almost each post I write, this is venting. this is an outlet.. and the less often i write in this blog, the better. You know i'm doing good when I dont have time to bitch.
but here I am.. visiting blogspot... because im in a fucking weird situation and I found myself crying on the bathroom floor today.
I use to be in a realtionship with a man that is 9 years older than me. I dont know what age it is but everyone has a point of no return. After a certain age you are just kinda done and nothing said or done will change you. I wasnt dating a man, I was dating a lost cause.. so in effect.. I wasnt dating anyone at all.
I use to look in the mirror at something that resembled my reflection and I thought.. who in the hell is this girl that is trying to be me and is doing such a piss poor job!?
After picking myself up today I looked in the mirror.. I finally saw myself.
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