i cant sleep right now. im tired of all the playing around. i like things in black and white. these funky greys got me tangled up. i want to start over. just a new life. i wish there was no recollection of what happened. no recognition in their eyes. that they couldnt say this always happens, and i couldnt say i should have known.
getting walked over is something i am very good at. i allow you to be apart of my life, i invite you in because i think you are a human as well and if i share enough of myself, maybe i give you just enough to make it. but i wish i could start over and be harsh so i know i wont be treated this way. i wish i could go back and tell you not to do this.
forgiveness is something i use loosely. you dont ever deserve it.
i trusted you, i thought you were different, but these highs and lows are too much. my family is worried. you give me this. you are the same as they all have been, and just the fact that you say you're different then all the rest makes you the exact same as them all.
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