you are starting to get pretty damn close. and its making me nervous.
the worst feeling is when i silently cry over the phone.
the worst feeling is knowing im going to mess up your life. but then again, ive been promising myself that i wont let bipolar have a say in what i do in my life.
ive been taking my meds on and off. some days i forget. some days i just need the rush.
when i dont take my meds, i have free will in my body to feel whatever i feel at the time. not much restraint. and when im on my meds, it mutes me a little.
but a big fear...? im going to show how im really feeling and you will see me cry my eyes out about something stupid, or swear at you because you tried to help me. its going to happen. its only a matter of time.
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